Hi. Cellophane here.
Have you ever been so comfortable that you let your guard down? Then when you let it down so much and finally feel like you belong, you end up annoying people?
That’s always been my greatest fear.
It still is my greatest fear. I’m afraid to be my complete self. I’m afraid of letting people in because I know that one day they may leave me or get bored.
It’s a common insecurity that comes with growing up too quickly, afraid of pissing off two sides that will never find peace.
I used to think about calling it quits. I sometimes still do, but my younger siblings keep me going.
Do you have someone to live for? Are you willing to say goodbye to yourself and live only for them? Is that really living?
I don’t know anymore. I try to find a balance. It’s hard.
I hope you have your ducks in a row wherever you are reading this. I appreciate you taking the time to read these words, the thoughts in my mind I can’t tell anyone.